That moment when you lose your confidence about something that you love.
For me those moment are really hard and I cannot know how to overcome them sometimes.
Those moments start when you discover how bad you are about something you used to think that you made an achievement on it.
Like my case in , and here is the story.
Maybe some of you are sharing the same feeling with me.
When we started learning in the School, I wasn’t good at it, I can’t speak it because us you know it’s not enough to have a good on something, that does not prove that you really understand it, especially with our education system based on memorization).
The basic cause that made me bad at it, is that I could not accept the culture of this language. And this was not my own opinion, but I was influenced by my mothers’ stand against America and foreign culture in general.She so much in , and that the language is the best basing on her religious conviction that Islam is the right religion and all people who goes to heaven will speak .
Anyway, I passed a long period my life on this opinion and I did not try to discover those foreign . Until one day I was with my cousins and they were talking about foreign TV programs and songs, I couldn’t understand what they are talking about, and I felt so ignorant. from there decided to learn more and work more to improve my level in languages basically and , and I start a little too.
have to be still have a lot of with french because couldn’t like culture so I couldn’t improve in the language.
But the story is different with I started following films, TV show, read articles and listen to music I liked the living style, and I dreamed about moving on there I never get the chance to visit America).
I improved and I was proud because this skill from I worked on it by myself.
But a time ago, I discovered how much ‘m my level.
I discovered that I do enormous mistakeespecially on grammar and spelling and that my vocabulary still weak.
Since that time and I feel bad also not confident, and I remark that I even start avoiding to answer some questions about the meaning of some world, and start to doubt , every I use or I write.
This feeling is really destructive, I know that the solution is in the hard work I have to work more to improve more, getting depressed about such a situation will not solve it, it will make it worst.
But it’s really sad, and overwhelming feeling, hard to overcome.
will not quit, and I will try harder no matter how bad I feel.