screaming form help

we all need help sometimes but we don’t know from where to start, or who to ask ,and sometimes we just hesitate to ask help because we don’t know if people will accept to help or not , i used not to ask help. and when i decided to be more open i asked it from wrong people, and not only i that, i just maintained to that question very badly.
In some other cases i just mimic my need to help but no one understand or even care.
Today i feel that i want to scream i need helllllllllllllllllllppppppppp but i just keep quit and i hold my breath until i fall into sleep