I want a night under the stars, I want to go out, to love to be loved , to be beautiful and to dance ………….. the problem is this still a simple desire that has no chance of being realized.
I feel a need to feel beautiful , I have a need to see sight of desire in my man eyes , I usually don’t express such kind of feeling that I get from time to time , but after all i’m a woman and I want to feel my femininity .
A lot of people understand badly when I express this, but right now I don’t care about what they say,or think about me .
Usually they start giving advice such as try to fill your time and don’t think about this you will get someone when it’s time for you and when it will be meant to be.
I feel angry about such advice and I want to tell them:” people, just shut up , you don’t even know about my life. and I assure you that it’s much more exciting than any of yours.
I’m not justifying myself or trying to say hello I’m not just a silly girl looking for a boyfriend or a hasbund .
I’m just talking about love, desire, femininity, things that we need to feel sometimes, wich are so far away from ordinary sex or ordinary desire, there is some kind of beauty, femininity and desire so classy that only you can feel them you can’t describe them, such as in a perfect tango dance, things like that can change the routine of every day, can recharge our soul and mind, and take us so far away from the cruelty of this world