Well maybe i should say thank you to everyone has rejected me once , because it’s because of them that i choose to draw , because of them i became an artist .
When i was young , I had no place in the community , I had no place in my big familly , and i was tiny , mini ,and noiseless you can barely notice me , or at least it was my feeling especially in time of holiday when i have to meet the big familly .
First i was struggling to find a place to appear, to feel that i exist and to feel that i’m important, but it wasn’t the case , I wasn’t important so than after a while i understood that this is not a big deal , and i will never find a place with them .
So I decided to stay home to isolate myself from them and to build my own world , and my parent helped me on that , by that time I start drawing .
I start expressing my ideas my personality through drawing i have to say that i was awful in that and my paint was something inexplicable and very ugly. My friends and colleagues were always laughing on them . Here an exemple of my first awful drawings
But i never stoped , there laugh wasn’t more painful than struggling to prove that I exist and even if i felt sad i didn’t pay so much attention to this i already felt rejected before , so there laugh were nothing to me .
fortunately in all those people I have a friend my darling “Hanen” she’s a great friend she’s the one who helped me to developing myself at drawing , we used to draw together to exchange painting between us .On that time we were painting only women , clothes, fashion or cartoon . well now if i want to analyse it psychologically it seems normal to me cause by that time i had a problem with my body , ith who i’m , and with my whole physical appearance. And my drawing become looking like this
Few years later i had meet my first drawing teacher and let’s say he was more friend than a teacher with him i find out that i can do more than drawing some clothes, with him i had understood that painting is rather a feeling and a technique , and i was so sure that i had the feeling , i have a powerful feeling what lack is the technique , so i start learning some techniques and i get better and my drawing are not awful anymore . And my drawing become looking like this
Now I still try to learn more about techniques, and i’m discovering myself in new techniques more and more , ( below an example of my firsts drawings using pastel ) but my drawing become really much more deeper than ever i passed the step of finding myself and creat my own world ,than i passed the step of discovering my ability through new technique and now i’m in the step of deep thinking , passing messages through drawing , and of course I still have to learn more and more .
By now maybe i have to say thank you to all those who rejected me once , thank you, because you pushed me into an exceptional world , the world of pencil , paper and colors , thank you because of you and of your rejection , i feel good now , i feel satisfaction with what i’m doing , you helped me indirectly to find out who i’m and what i want to do , Now i know that drawing is for me , drawing is my refuge , drawing make me feel safe like in the arm of a beloved .
I would say also thank you to those who helped me to express through. drawing and helped me to develope myself so necessarily i would say thank you to my parent and to my friends .
And to anyone , coincidentally reading this post , never accept rejection , be who you are and create your own universe